Friday, August 20, 2010

the city is calling my name...

Do you ever feel as though, you're not where you belong? Or maybe that there is more of the world that you need to see? Maybe there is something in another part of the world that you need to see, learn about... just maybe there are people there that you need to meet, experiences that you may not even be able to experience in the place that you are located? [please excuse my run-on question] This is the way I feel about New York. I have felt like this since I visited in 2007. In fact, I has the opportunity to do my undergrad there.  The university was not in the city, though. The school was in some boondock area near the state's capital, Albany. The town seemed like something from a horror movie. I felt like I wouldn't have the experience that I was hoping for in the woods. Also, I just may not have been ready to make that big move. In two years though, I will be ready. New York is where I will be, God willing.

Don't get me wrong, I love my hometown but every time I am back here for a vacation or a short visit I am reminded of why I left. And the rest of the world has so much more to offer me. There are lessons out there that the streets of Compton will fail to give me. Davis, where I currently go to school, has taught me a lot, but its time will come to an end in two years when I walk across that stage.

Graduate school is my plan after graduation. Just looking at all of the possible programs I can participate in and do research has me excited. And if, I don't end up in NY, I plan to be very near.

...I just wish I could take a few people, ideas, aspects of my life in my hometown with me.

2 comments:

Shandra E...*the misses said...

i feel you!!! I often feel like i belong on the other side of the globe! where exactly...idk, but goodnezzz may the wind just blow me away!!! lol...i just need a new environment...a new experience...a new life to live for just a moment...?! & it's not even like i have things to run from, i just need to run because it'll teach me to "walk" with a better stride...& simple things like "just breathing" won't be a complicated option...i don't wanna "just breathe" when there's more to life...I wanna LIVE!! and yess, the streets of compton cannot satisfy my desire to LIVE...so may the wind blow you and me both...

UP, UP, & AWAY.
that's where i wanna go...Up the ladder of success, UP into a higher calling in God, & AWAY from here/stagnation...

deonna said...

I am glad I am not alone. Living is the only thing to do. Otherwise, you're just existing.

God shall blow us up... we're going higher!