Dear 30-year old Deonna,
I hope you're living in a brownstone or in another beautiful home in the city you've been wanting to live in since you visited, New York. If not, where are you? Do you own a home like you planned too? And are you happy with where you are? I know you wanted to do a lot of things in your life, so how much have you completed? Where did you go to graduate school? Have you changed the world, even a little? I think by this time you should be in a career that you love and working for yourself because I know you don't like tot be under the watch of others. The only person that should be watching you 24/7 is God.
I pray that your relationship with God is on track because we've been up and down with the whole religion thing. Are you believing for you and not for anyone else? I think it's good you questioned though because some folks just go along with religion because it is how they were raised. I guess that is what happens when you're more like your father than anyone would ever know. How is your relationship with him, by the way? Did the momentum you starting in summer 2010 keep moving forward? I hope so!! No need in losing momentum when you've made so much progress, you know?
Are you still in a relationship? Did you and Derrick survive having a long distance relationship in undergrad? Did you all end up going to the east coast after graduation? Did you get married? If so, I hope you and Derrick are on the same page, of the same chapter of the same book. I think that's the key of making a relationship work–that and communication. And going off of that, I'm sure you've learned by now that having REAL conversations with folks can change your attittude, behaviors, perception and reality. At this very moment you are a person whose openness resembles that of a hermit crab. You come out, only when you feel comfortable. Change is necessary and I see you opening up, slowly but surely. Keep evolving, girl! Afterall, you do consider yourself an eternal student of life. Keep learning about yourself and the people, things and places around you.
Places... I wonder how many countries you've been to at this point. 20? 30? 40? Have you reached your goal of 50x50? Have you surpassed your goal? Where have you been? Where do you plan on going? Your best or worst experiences abroad? Have you ever lived abroad? If not, you should!!!!!! And did you, Jamie and Malik ever go to Japan together?
Yo!! If you're 30, Malik is 26. How is he? And the rest of the family? I hope everyone is happy because I think that's the most important thing in life.
Last question... if you could change anything in your life from the past or present, would you and what would it be? I know as of right now, I always say, "I regret nothing. All my experiences make me who I am today", but I'm wondering if anything has changed.
peace & much love,
20-year old Deonna whose still in search of her word and creating herself everyday.
P.S. I love you.